I Had a Future
Louis Callister
English 150
Wednesday 27 November 2013, 5 p.m. section
I; in this poem refers to Kavanagh himself… as the poem refers to Kavanagh's personal experiences in '40's Dublin later in the poem.
I had a future,as if Kavanagh/the narrator does not feel the promise of their youth's tomorrow came to fruition. The narrator seems to miss the way he felt in the past.
The mirage/ That was my future
miragedoes seem to be an admittance of the fact that his past view of the future was flawed — perhaps overly optimistic.
not just any streets/ but the streets of nineteen forty.)
how I felt about money/ not frantic as laterhe imagines his past self as less stressed out than he used to be.
Show me the stretcher-bed I slept on/ In a room on Drumcondra Road [a road in Dublin]/ Let John Betjeman call for me in a car.
Something that stands out to me is Give the quarter-seeing eyes I looked out of/ The animal-remembering mind
… quarter-seeing eyes
— possibly referring to the fact that we'll never even consciously register all the information surrounding us, let alone remember it with our animal-remembering mind.
I think that here, the narrator is admitting to the imperfect nature in which memory is consolidated.
Give the quarter-seeing eyes I looked out of/The animal-remembering mindmean to you?
walked towardsas a
mirageDo you think Kavanagh felt like he could have achieved
the miragethat he imagined his future to be in the '40's?
the eerie beat/ of madness in Europe trembles the/ wings of butterlies along the canal.Do you think he is referring to WWII? Perhaps foreshadowing the tumultuous state in which he finds himself writing this poem?
Innocence
I Had a Futurethe lines
And then the pathos of the blind soul,/ How without knowing stands in its own / kingdom.Seems to dovetail with the poem
Innocence
On Raglan Road
The Circus Animal's Desertion